| hmph.. it has been a while.. and it's that same time of the year, where everyones extremely nice.. and i guess everyone enjoys that feeling but how many more of these will i enjoy..?
soon we'll be in the working world, where our lives are dominated by constant repetition and a higher ranking superior looking over us.. controlling us..
some ppl do stupid things when they're not the most sober.. and i guess some others more so than usual..
sometimes you wait around and you're happy to see so many msgs from everyone.. but you're just waiting for this one person.. who will always be on your mind..
gg.. its been a while..
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| Transfer
Well this post is about transferring, if you can tell by the title which is just extra crap I type and more for you to read. w/e
Anyways.. been in the states for 1 year.. and I have spots in 2 university's in Melbourne waiting for me, Melb uni and Monash. Both decent and not bad to some people and somewhat avg or anyhow to others.
These spots have been offered to me since Feb 2007, however I deffered (postponed) both my spots and they are waiting for me in Feb/March 2008 to return, if I do return that is.
Everyday I think back and fourth whether or not to transfer, some days I really want to.. other days I want to go back and have fun and study in the states, because its an opportunity i'll never be able to experience again.
I know if I head to the states, i'll either end up working there or hk, but if I study in melb, ill be there for most/rest of my life. I'll end up learning to drive, probably getting a job around where I live, meeting all my old primary friends, having a great time. Since that's what has happened so far, as I got back to melb. I hang out with old friends from primary, meet new people who are great to hang out with and I could be living here with these people and studying and moving on with my life, either from now or in 6 months time when the new school year starts.
Or head back to the states study, play frisbee (which I really want to, but has nothing for me in the future), and hopefully get a degree in the states and either end up working there or heading back to HK. I currently don't want to because of my past experiences, relationships and etc are such a hassle, but I feel so stupid leaving because of one tiny problem which will be nothing in a few years time when I have eventually just moved on. I need to focus and properly study, I guess we've all heard and said this to ourselves "to try harder, get a better gpa" etc. Sometimes i'm just distracted or I don't know what I want to do or w/e.
I know the final choice is mine whether people say do this or that, all that will happen is that more conflicts or ideas will pop up in my head and then sway my decision one way or the other.
I'm going back to hk to work at hsbc for 2 months as an internship. If I really want to head to melbourne, I could work at hsbc for 6 months and then just come back to aus and study and start all over again without problems distractions and etc. Life would be great, but I guess that sort of seems like the easy way out, since what i've been through is just problems and more problems, as some of you know, because I either call you in the states or have talked to you about it :\
confused..
Not much else to add, other stuff is more personal and more in detail but this is a public site so I'm not that fond of sharing all of it online. Will talk to people about it either in person or some other way..
zhang
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| you've only been gone
for 10 days
but i'm already wasting my life away..
i need you to know that i care..
and that i miss you..
would i be out of line if i said i miss
you..?
maybe i'll never see you again..
i wish that you'd realize that i still care and miss
you..
my life crumbles as the days go by
without you around..
a state of
depression overwhelms me and takes over..
everytime i see you is a gift and lightens up my day..
its easy for you to move on.. but some of us just can't let
go..
i miss you.. |
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| gg finals within a week.. gg
not studying cuz distracted and shitty week, shitty month.. etc etc..
going to sf for 5 days after i finish exams.. then heading to aus for most of june..
then going back to hk for work and etc.. in july/aug or mayb shanghai then hk..
zhang
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